it's been 1380 days since i got this thing. you know, i used to update this religiously everyday. rereading old entries, you can see the story of my life for the first 3 years of high school and sporadic portions of the last year. so much has changed since my last entry, which was made in march of this year. like . . . everything. and to compare the freshman brian who made that first post all those years ago to the one who is sitting here typing now is almost mind-blowing. "life's about changes," says one of my favorite songs, "nothing ever stays the same." how true is that? we move along. we don't have much of a choice in the matter, we have to. that's what life is. sometimes i wish i could go back. back to freshman year when things were simpler, back to senior year when i had so much fun. but now i'm in memphis. and i have to be all in memphis. all in the present. it's just not always easy. but no one said that life would be easy, either. i'm in a really thoughtful mood, now. if you didn't notice. hmm. maybe life is going better than i thought. better than i want to let myself realize it is. maybe things are looking up . . . | 
